Harsh words hurt feelings. But silence breaks hearts.

Its been a while tak update blog, bersawang dah haa... HAHA.
Ada ka yang miss me? Takdelah kot. Blog ni bukan popular pon. saya ni ha yang rindu nak baca blog kawan2 ;B teehihihi.

Kemana menghilang? Actually mana de hilang pun, tak sempat nak hilang~ ^^,
Ada je. Still doing the same like i did before. Still in hell that i created myself. HAHA.

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Mulanya macam dah sampai masa nanti mahu bercerita dalam blog ini tentang segala2nya; tapi rasanya even itu pun takkan selesaikan apa2 masalah. Harsh words hurt feelings kan? But silence breaks hearts. Though assumption is the mother of all mistakes, but silents still breaks heart. Satu hari nanti yang betul tu akan terkeluar juga. Di masa2 ini, apa pun yang kami tegakkan, still what they wanna see, is what they gonna only believe and see. There's nothing we can do about it. We can't fight the power that they have, its like dah tentu2 diorang akan menang, who are we to fight pon? :) When it comes to family, this is as far as we can go to. Worried, it may get worst pulak. So, let it be.

Sapa lagi saya nak harapkan disisi untuk menyokong if not my family kan. Yes, i talked about this to my family, and personally to my mother and things get worst. Mak pon pissed off sangat2 and jadi macam lagi kucar kacir bila my side pula dapat tau. Nak tanggung sendiri tak terlarat, so thats why i told her. They pity Adie cause he is in between, but at the same time, we all hurt cause it related to all of us. I ask Mak, am i really that bad as they think about me? She knows me, and she know the real story. About him, about us, and she always be in between when we're in a fight. And thats why she knows all. But when they accuse me to the things that they don't really understand, so i said to myself, yes, i am, just to let everyone happy. Those do hurt me and my family, but i understand that they do this for Adie.

Terkilan kerana disaat kami dah mula rasa stabil dan bahagia ni, jadi begini pula. I know, what he did for me is a favor that he want to do it himself and a make-it-up-thingy after all he have done to me in previous. :') he treat me too nice now, and its seen as a burden to them pula. i forgived him, and finally i get him back. But tak lama, mungkin kerana we're never have the fate to be together :) But, i do want to tell here, its not like i'm in control of him or anything, he still do what he want to do despite i get upset pon, so i don't know if its still calls i'm in control. But, i think he himself pressured about being in blame, so that's why this burst out... (sorry). So yeah, we finally decided to separate for good.

To whom it may concern, all your kindness, love and respect sebelum ni will gonna always be what i'm thankful for. Segala yang pernah you guys berikan, segala yang kita pernah buat bersama2, will always gonna be my sweetest memories, even though it was not to you guys pon. :') Thank you though for having me feels like i'm a part of your family even for a short moment. (Maybe this wont work a bit pon, but this is just my appreciation and got nothing to do with Adie.)

Bila dah jadi begini, of course everything dah jadi tawar. But the memories still remains forever. For Adie, i've convinced everyone else that i don't want you anymore. Now all i need to do is convince myself. :) and i'm on my way now.

You guys, don't worry. Adie and saya hardly contact pon. Cuma sesekali we're saying Hi's in myspace or facebook. So, don't bother to ask him whether i'm the one who call or message him k. Its not me anymore. I know the pressure that he has now. I'm fully understand that being friends with him pon is not ideal for you guys. So yeah, i understand and stand back.

i get the feeling that this entry may become an issue too, so lets just stop here then, nanti saya might tertaip something yang maybe create another missunderstanding pula.

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tunggu saya. banyak nak catchup ni. :))